I always have this thought to my self, what if. There is always an alternate thinking to my self in every aspect in life. The biggest one is always what if i’m born physically normal like everybody else? how would it be like? A few things that came across my mind for what if i were a normal guy. How would i grow up to be? Who and what type of person will i meet? What other type of personality will i get? A lot of alternate version of me i can think of with all this what if thoughts. If i were a normal guy, i would go to a government school and know different type of people, i would perceive things and life differently. I maybe not so optimistic and will be a very ordinary common guy, but given with my family back ground i have a thinking that i will be a very spoil child. Spending lots of money, having many girl friends, or girl friends changing time to time. I will be a better looking person but grow up to be an asshole? A total opposite of what i am now.
Another alternate life would be, i am a normal guy physically, with the similar type of personality that i have now but not 100% because things u perceive in different situation. Some are the things i am able to realize through this condition where normal people don’t. I be able to fall in love, able to date the person i want to be with, things will be much easier with less troublesome. People are able to accept a normal guy? hhhmm…?? What will it be? How will it turn out? So if i’m normal i would be driving a sports car around. Able to attract many girls perhaps? I probably be a very ordinary tom, dick and harry around like everybody else being the same, normal. So if i’m normal i wouldn’t have the fear of being alone, not wanted by people, able to be accepted by the other party easily hhmm… all sort of possibilities i think of for all situation.
I’m saying all these because of anything is just a thought what will be like if everything is different. I will meet different people too, brought up differently, different views, a total 360 degree turn perhaps. I’m happy with what i have now, am truly blessed with everything i have in life up to now, with friends, family everybody support. Trying my best and all my will to pursuit in what i believe in now and what i want to achieve and get. I always believe there is a reason for what i am and who i am, i am different and hopping to inspire to be looked up by people, to be respected and admire. I always hope that i believe in people i know and they will believe in me, thats understanding each other, have faith.
Feel free to put ur comments or opinion of what do you think.
Here’s a song for you guys i find this song very calm and the lyrics is pretty good and inspiring enjoy. Oh the girl ain’t bad looking in the mv. One thing about these japanese songs is they are not all about love or some sad break up or emo songs, rather they are pretty pump with spirit.
Lyrics to the song is here Shoko Nakagawa/Ray Of Light
I think someway or another, even if we have everything (I mean, born normal), at some point, you will have to accept who you are. I think it is great to know you even though it was a chance meeting. Would have love to know you much, much earlier…
thanks for your support man !! in my mind is always thinking all sort of possibilities in anything
actually, in other parallel dimensions, other versions of you may be as like you described, born in a normal physical body.
Have u think if u are born normally and u wont blogging… that’s mean no botakai… and I won’t meet u… *emo feeling* (o^^)o
Sometime I also ask myself why I won’t be like normal guy… had normal family… warm love from them… (FYI I haven’t meet them for almost 1year ++) even through calling or anything and what i know every month, money in…
So, everyone always had their good and bad time…anywhere… u always have us around u ^^
yeah man =)
thats why i say im happy to what i have but is just about what if this and that happen
haha you rock mann! You grew up just like any other normal guy to me, and am amazed by all the dreams and goals you had in mind! With clear targets, one wouldn’t get lost easily! Here you go! Good Luck
We love you for who you are. And trust me, I believe you being who you are, had make a very great difference in our life. You may not realise it. But yes, you’re one of the reason all of us relatives get so close together.
And, I believe you have brought joys in all our life.
With your humour, you have all the great friends. You socialize, mix, and im really glad that you learn to see life in a positive-manner. Many whom are blessed do not appreciate what they have. But least you know how to appreciate your surroundings.
So yeah, kor, you really rock in my eyes! Though i’ve nvr really express my thoughts to you, but yes, we all love you, dearly =)
I think everyone is meant to do great things, in their own way. So yes, you will do great, great things – I am sure of that! I am very lucky indeed to have made a friend like you!
…and my god…7-23. That’s 16 friggin’ years!
omg u are one of my longest friend !! hehe glad to have u !! =)
Hey my dear. I would not wished to have known you in any other way. I think you’re beautiful as you are as a whole. And my god, you’ve done far more things than any other average person has. I would think you as an inspiration for other people to strive harder. Anyway, you’re an awesome person. I do get it though. Fantasizing myself in a different light, different life, richer with pair of Jimmy Choos. haha..